Vegas, Baby!

An actual vacation! I can't wait!
I think that the last vacation I attempted to go on was also to Vegas...that ended up being a bad time. This time, I get to spend an amazing 5 days there with the  best boyfriend on the planet!
I want to write a million lines on how happy I am to be going, especially with him. -Words just can't describe how excited I am!

L.O.V.E.

This is one of the more recent pictures of my boyfriend and I. Taken last month at his paintball tournament in Roosevelt, Utah (yeah, we went That far away).
I wanted to share this with people, because I'm so happy with him, he makes my life a million times better. But, this isn't really something that can go on Facebook at this time, since we work together, and we're not quite ready to break the news to the rest of our coworkers.
I'm crazy about this guy! He is the sweetest guy I've met!

A Divorce Story

Can I suggest..that if you can manage it, don't get a divorce?
I started this whole ordeal in April. I managed to mess up serving papers twice, but had to wait a month in between doing so before I realized it. The instructions said that you could just mail it. -So I did. Turns out...I need a certified mail receipt. That would have been nice to know...
SO! Certified mail receipt time. Gets signed by his mom. Also bad. Turns out...HE has to sign it. *sigh*
So I did away with the whole mailing business, and decided to hire someone from the sheriff's department instead to take care of this business. I mean, they've done it before, they have to know what to do, yes? At the beginning of July, the sheriff's deputy made his first visit to their house, only to find out that my "husband" had left for Portland (with two girls in tow, mind you) and was going to be gone for a month. Woo....more waiting for me.
As you could probably guess, his month of time is now over. So, the sheriff went over there yet again. Apparently, whoever answered the door there was super rude to him, and his family has decided that they wouldn't cooperate with the sheriff's department at all. Hooray for me, right? He asked them why they wouldn't cooperate, and they just said that said "husband" wants to make this as difficult for me as possible. Tell you what, at this point, I'm really starting to feel that he "misses me" and that "i'm the only one for him" blah blah blah...
Luckily for me, the court felt the pain of the sheriff's deputy more than they did my own. So they allowed him to just drop off the papers at the house, not directly to him, but what other choice did we have at this point? So now I am waiting again, crossing my fingers that the next 20 days goes by uninterrupted, and that I don't have to attempt to serve papers again.
I can understand someone having sore feelings about getting divorced, and wishing that it wasn't happening to them. Heck, I wish it wasn't happening to me. But when they're seeing other people...sleeping with other people, wouldn't you agree that it's just time that they let it go? I don't think it would bother me so much if I didn't know what had been going on with him in the last 6 months. But if I've learned anything from this ordeal it's that the truth hurts. -A lot. But, it's better than being lied to for ages.

Something New

I don't think that I've ever had a guy tell me that I'm beautiful each night before I go to bed. -Until now. If you haven't guessed yet, I have someone new in my life. His name is Brandon.
I haven't ever felt so..cared for by someone before. In fact, it's quite a shock. I'm not used to it yet. I wake up every morning wondering how I got so lucky, and dancing around the house, hoping that I'll hear from him soon.
I don't know what is going to happen in the future between us, the future is just too unreliable like that. -I think most of us know that by now. But, I'm hoping to have him around for a long long time. :)

In completely unrelated news, my parent's keyboard sucks. : / 

Begin Again

I haven't heard from Shaun in over a month now, almost 2 months. It seems weird to me still. I sent off the divorce papers to him earlier this week; I guess he got them. Who knows, I guess I'll have to call the courthouse to find out. :S
Life is going a lot better for me than it was the last time that I posted. For one thing, I'm now the proud owner of a new bed! I swear, nothing was more depressing than coming home to an air mattress on the floor of a very large bedroom. As if it didn't feel empty enough. The company gave me some awesome sheets to go with it. so even though my bed is still on the floor, it's much more comfortable. :D
On Andrew's birthday we went to see Rise Against.Talk about an awesome night! **Personal Note: I should invest in a digital camera, anyone know of some good ones that won't break my bank??** It was so loud that night, I couldn't hear the band playing for most of the time! But, we were up pretty close, so that probably didn't help.
On a side note, I can't believe he's 19 now! He is working on his mission papers currently, I guess by the end of the summer they think he'll be gone.  He has changed so much over the past few months, I'm really happy for him. He just seems like such a happier kid. I guess you can give most of the credit for that to his girlfriend, but he really has changed around.
Another thing that has evolved out of my single life is having Emily be one of my closer friends now, not just a sister. I never would have thought, in a million years that I'd be spending time with her. :P
I guess this is getting long, so I'll cut it down. I'm working on rebuilding still, trying to figure out what I want in life, where I want to go and what I want to do. It's not very easy doing this now, I know a lot of people my age started doing this 4 or 5 years ago. I'm a little bit behind in the game, in a lot of ways. But, I guess better late than never, right?

Moving On.

"And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on." 

-He's Just Not That Into You

I'm trying to just live this right now, with every breath that I'm taking. Moving on. Sometimes it sounds so easy, after all the divorce was my decision. Other times though, moving on is a lot harder than I ever thought it would be, even after all the chick flicks I've watched in my lifetime. 

Love. It really is the beginning and the end of all of my troubles. Over the past month, my life has taken some very unexpected turns. Life has gone where I never thought I would be taken. 

I want to say that I'm sorry to people who I've abandoned in the past. I wish with all my heart that I hadn't done that, I was wrong for the way that I acted. If any of you out there would be willing to forgive me, or want to know what is going on in life now, I would love to see you. I've rewritten my story here hundreds of times and deleted it, it's something best left to tell in person.